Home Sweet Apartment

It's a gloomy rainy "3 muskateers" type of morning and I feel like blah. It could be the rain but I think it's my living situation that has me feeling kinda blue. I have an apartment now but my lease is up in June and I am having the hardest time finding someplace else to live. I don't have credit, my job is not substantial enough income wise to qualify, and most of all I don't have transportation to really go that far from the train station or my mom (sighs). I have to stop and ask myself "what is it that got me in where I am now?" And why is whatever that factor was not working right now?! I keep hearing from freinds "move back home for a while" , or move back into the city and away from all of the deer" (I live with deer lol, ok my apartment is across the street from the forest so you can say I do). I really want to move away from the suburban life but it's all I know I guess this is my personal demon. I'm not easily open to a lot of change but the way things are going I am going to have to get use to it. Change is just a part of life