just wanted to put it out there this blog is no longer for school so there will be some interesting topics that will find thier way onto my blog (nothing too personal but more "in depth") so as long as I have internet, I will update my blog so stay tuned

Hello blogland it is I yet agian. Who else did you think it would be?.. Anyway so as of late I have been busy trying to find a new place to call home and alas I have been successful in doing so! I recently became the new renter of a condo in Park Forest Il. Now truthfully I don't get the difference between condo and apartment but all that matters is that I am leaving this apartment complex Im currently at. It's a nice setting and I love my place, but the local color is...well not exaclty to my standard of living (yeah I know that makes me sound snobby but if you consider not wanting to be awaken by your neighbor blasting his rap music to the top dicipal of his stereo snobby then call me snobby mcsnooty) Anyway I have to go to the office today and fill out my notice to vacate paperwork and I have to admit that I'm a little misty-eyed about it...but then I hear the slamming doors at 1am, and hear the loud noises and music at random times of the day, I realize I am doing the right thing. NOT TO MENTION MY RENT IS GOING FROM 718 (wouldve been 750 if I had signed my lease) TO 675 WITH NO INCREASE!!!!!!!!!! SO SAYANAR STEGER COLONIES APT 218! Hello Par Forest cond and tranquility (pics coming soon)

If you ask me what my mission in life is, A few years ago I would have told you to enter an all u can eat pancake contest (seriously) but now that I have had a few years of college and a new outlook placed in my life about where I want to go and what I want to do, I can say that my new mission (although I still love pancakes) is to work at an ad agency here in Chicago. I have such a passion for creativity, and innovation when it comes to whats new and inspiring in the ad world. I think quickly on my feet and have endless ideas. Given the current state of some of these so called creative commercials and ads that we are exposed to from day to day, it is obvious that it is time for some new creative ad blood. I am so ready to get out there and become something more than just a college student. This journey seems like it is taking forever but I guess good things come to those who wait. I am aiming for the stars but as long as I get off the ground landing amongst the clouds will be just fine for me.

Hello blog hogs! This is my epiphany post that I am typing out. Even though this blog was started as a class project, I plan on keeping it well after the class. The epiphany or "ah ha" moment was when I realized that this blog didn't have to be so structured. When we began I thought this blog would be about all kinds of enviromental issues, lifestyles (like homosexuality, rich folks , poor folks) but then I began to see this is my space and in spite of the fact that I wiped the free store clean of all odds and ends (I know some of you remember that day) I didn't have to be bound to using those objects to express myself, nor did I have to use the above mentioned topics to make my blog "my blog". Well after the class is over who knows what the blog will hold about me and my life, but for now I am just living my life and I encourage you to do the same. That is all for now. Until next time bloggers!

Hellooo blogland It has come to my attention that I am graduating soon...and I am soo not letting it sink in that I am almost a college graduate. The reason for that is because I have the worst time accepting change in my life and when it comes to school there is a safety net that you feel when you think of your education. As expensive as it may be for us college students, there is still a sense of security while in school. Beyond the walls of an institution lies the real world and all of the wonderful splendid, scary, unforgiving things associated with it. I know that I obviously don't want to stay in school forever but just thinking about what lies ahead scares me...Well that and the question: will Ashley ever make it PASSED her mathmatical education????? I guess just like me you guys will have to stay tuned to find out

THIS POST IS IN ALL CAPS BECAUSE I AM VERY FURIOUS AND THIS EMPHASIZES THAT...OK WHERE DO I BEGIN ALTHOUGH ALL OF MY POSTS ARE AROUND THE SAME DATE BELIEVE ME THESE THOUGHTS/THINGS HAPPENED AT DIFFERENT TIMES. THIS NEXT THING I AM GOING TO TALK ABOUT IS IN ASSOCIATION WITH MY PREVIOUS POST ABOUT BIRDS. ABOUT A WEEK AGO I WAS ON MY WAY TO SCHOOL WALKING WITH MY MOM FROM THE TRAIN STATION. ALL OF A SUDDEN I COULD PRACTICALLY FEEL A PIEGON SITTING ON MY HEAD THAT'S HOW CLOSE TO ME THIS BASTARD WAS. I COULD HEAR HIS WING FLAP OVER ME (SHUTTERS). I OF COURSE THOUGHT THIS WAS UNUSUAL SO I KIND OF KNEW WHAT WAS GOING ON. I HAD JUST CUSSED THE BIRD OUT IN MY HEAD CALLING IT SOME VERY BAD WORDS THAT I WILL NOT TYPE IN HERE BECAUSE MY WHOLE CLASS WILL BE READING THIS BUT YOU GET THE POINT. IT WAS ALMOST AS IF THE DAM THING HEARD AND UNDERSTOOD ME SWOOPS OVE MY HEAD AS A WARNING NOT TO SPEAK HIS NAME ANYMORE THEN FLIES AWAY. I ARRIVE AT DUNKIN DONUTS FOR MY CUP OF COFFEE AND TAKE MY HOOD OFF INSIDE BECAUSE IT WAS GETTING A LITTLE HOT. AS I ORDER MY COFFEE I SEE THAT MY VISITOR THIS MORNING LEFT A LITTLE GIFT TO ME ON MY SLEEVE. DISGUSTED AS I WAS I WIPED IT OFF FULLY KNOWING I WAS GOING TO DROWN MY COAT IN SOAP WHEN I GOT TO SCHOOL. UPON ARRIVING AT SCHOOL I HAD AN ERIE FEELING THERE WAS SOMETHING MORE ON ME AND SO I ASKED A FELLOW STUDENT WHO WAS AT THE DOOR WAITING TO GET IN WITH ME IF HE MINDED TELLING ME IF I HAD BIRD RELEASE ON ME ANYWHERE. IT WAS ALMOST AS IF I HAD A "FLUSH WHEN DONE" SIGN ON MY BODY BECAUSE THAT LITTLE NASTY %^#^^($#@@@**#*$ GOT ME IN MY HOOD, ON BOTH SLEEVES,AND ON THE BOTTOM OF MY PURSE!! HOW THE HELL DID HE HIT THE BOTTOM OF MY PURSE??? NEEDLESS TO SAY I WAS REPULSED AND MORESO I HAD PUT MY HOOD ON SO NOW IM THINKING ITS IN MY HAIR!!!!!!! I ASKED THE GUY WHO TOLD ME OF MY MISFORTUNE IF IT WAS IN MY HAIR HE TOLD ME NO BUT I COULDN'T EVEN BE HAPPY BECAUSE IT WAS EVERYWHERE ELSE ON ME! AND TO MAKE IT EVEN WORSE I HAD TO BE DOWNTOWN UNTIL 4PM! AND IT WAS ONLY 7:30AM! I IMMEDIATELY RAN TO THE BATHROOM FLUNG OFF MY COAT AND PURSE AND HAD THE MISFORTUNE OF WIPING OFF MY COAT BUT ALSO DRINCHING MY HOOD IN HOT SOAPY WATER WATCHING AS THIS FEATHERED F##CKS EXCREMENT WASHES DOWN THE DRAIN. MY MY PURSE NO LONGER IS WELCOMED PASS MY FRONT DOOR AND WILL PROBABLY END UP IN THE TRASH NO MATTER HOW MUCH DISINFECTANT I HAVE DOUSED IT WITH. AND AS FOR THE COAT IT REMAINS AT THE LOCAL CLEANERS GUESS I'LL GO GET IT NOW BUT IM AFRAID THAT SAME PIEGON WILL RECOGNIZE MY COAT AND GO FOR IT AGAIN. TO THAT BIRD I SAY YOU ARE SOOO LUCKY I DON'T GO AND BUY A HUGE BOX OF DECON AND POUR IT IN THE STREETS OF DOWNTOWN SINCE I KNOW YOU AND YOUR FREINDS WILL EAT ANYTHING..WELL THAT AND I WOULD END UP CLEANING UP YOUR DEAD CARCUSES AS PUNISHMENT IF I GET CAUGHT..BUT IT WOULD ALMOST BE WORTH IT YOU RATS WITH WINGS!!!!!

Before I continue this blog I would like to give recognition to Barb the instructor of the course that inspired this blog because the days that were designated for blog work, she allowed me to prepare for my other classes and presentations so I am sending this thank you out to you Barb!!!

Last cup of coffee

I have to be at the train station at 6 am and truthfully I'M not looking forward to going to school in the morning because although it's the last day I have NO ENERGY left in my soul to do anything, not even to drag myself out of this bed and get the day going and eventually over with. I know there are some who can start the day with a sunny disposition and just feel perky as soon as their dam feet hit the floor..WELL I'M NOT ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE! Seeing as though I'm up before God every morning there is no sunny disposition because hell there is no sun!! I was actually late for work this morning because my school alarm went off @ 3:45 am instead of my work alarm @ 2:45am . I won't lie for those few blissfull moments that I had laying in my bed knowing i was late and not caring, I found a certain zen in the situation. Instantly I am transported back from my world of ignorance to reality.
I am thinking of all possible disturbances that would cause the train to stall so that I can extend my nap later on the train..
1) one of our freindly neighborhood wildlife creaures (skunk, deer, coyote,take your pick I hate them all)can run in front of the train , get the sh*t shcked out of it thus in the process causing such a circuit breakdown that the train is forced to sit and wait for repairs
2)no need for a number 2 i think number 1 took the prize (laughs devilishly)

Home Sweet Apartment

It's a gloomy rainy "3 muskateers" type of morning and I feel like blah. It could be the rain but I think it's my living situation that has me feeling kinda blue. I have an apartment now but my lease is up in June and I am having the hardest time finding someplace else to live. I don't have credit, my job is not substantial enough income wise to qualify, and most of all I don't have transportation to really go that far from the train station or my mom (sighs). I have to stop and ask myself "what is it that got me in where I am now?" And why is whatever that factor was not working right now?! I keep hearing from freinds "move back home for a while" , or move back into the city and away from all of the deer" (I live with deer lol, ok my apartment is across the street from the forest so you can say I do). I really want to move away from the suburban life but it's all I know I guess this is my personal demon. I'm not easily open to a lot of change but the way things are going I am going to have to get use to it. Change is just a part of life

AAAAHHH!!!

Hi there all my bloggers. Sorry I was away for a while that whole school/life/work thing got in the way. So now that I'm back discuss something so frightening, so repulsive, so feathered; BIRDS! Yes anyone that knows me knows that I am not a bird fan at all. It could stem from the pet bird that my grandfather killed with bug spray when I was ten (I guess he didn't know the aeresol can fumes will fall back down from the air and poor little birdie just became a casualty, still love you anyway gramps wherever you may be now), or it could be karma for me teasing my sister with the feather duster when we were younger; strangely enough she was afraid of the feather duster (laughing to myself). Whatever the reason may be that I am so afraid of these feathered freaks, I just am. To make matters worse I go to school downtown in peigon heaven where they frolic and feed off of everything and anything, and they don't even get scared when you walk by them! They even have this new tactic where they fly down over your head like an old navy bomber from WWII. Well whenever this paralyzing fear subsides in me...WHO AM I KIDDING WHEN I GET TO HEAVEN IM ASKING THE BIG MAN FOR PLASTICS OR PAPERWEIGHTS ON THE WINGS!...Please enjoy thee pics of these ugly fake flamingos Macys displayed in their window last year as if it was a good thing as well as this horrid video...DARK CHOCOLATE IT IS! (The queen says: off with their heads)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=si9j8AKN06Y